bandhamillaymayuDE uchasthaayi, engilum athil enthO illE...?

This is not philosophy, so don't cringe. This is what I want to say, but can't say.

This is simply what I felt immediately after waking up from my usual afternoon nap a few minutes back.

Weird? Absolutely. Childish? I think so. Seems grossly irresponsible. Enjoying every moment in life? Everybody feels so. Normal? Whats that? Caring? Of course. Suddenly I saw maturity personified. I was seeing a live transformation in front of me. An intelligent heart saturated with a calmness so natural as to seem in-born, as against someone who does not want to grow big or change. To control all the reins of life, and still, spare hands to embrace you.

Why had I, this feeling? My sneaky subconscious? Or the Impossible peeping at me through the door of unreality while Miss Sleep was leaving? Or just my desire to be a good judge of people??

None. I guess it was just a thought. One as weird as the one it was all about.

But the picture is there in my mind. Getting clearer by the minute as I type this.

And one day I'll know. Do I love change? Will those around love it? I don't know.

But I believe I shall. All will.

Exams around the corner

Life ain't easy when the exams are so near. Hardly a week more, caffiene is one thing which keeps me going. Just got some advice from deeveedee about green tea and plain water, but no thanks.

Final university exam, just want this to be over, too much left to study... Some subjects, as Varmaji said, read for 30 minutes and you will sleep for 3 hours. sigh. Taking a break now. Even the most optimistic timetable cant cram all subjects into whatever time is left. hmmm... let me get back to RMIs.